Note to...

Question:
Why do you automatically assume it is about you having made a horrendous mistake/ fallen short/ not done enough/ not been enough??

It took four point something billion, long, jam-packed years to get here - and you think you have a single flaw? Mother Nature would put her hands on her hips and pout if you told her you thought that about yourself!

Can't you imagine that it is all about you, but hello! It's that you were enough (more than enough), you did not make the horrendous mistake and the universe is not trying to punish you for it. It is about you - about what is best, highest, deepest, truest, strongest - what you said you wanted, you're on your way to getting. So please if some of the cities inside you must be ravaged, some of the forests burnt to cinders, it's just the way it gotta be.
Quit whining. You're fine. Get on with it. Deal.

Sudden Hot Spiky Joy

How's this for a lovely first email of the day?

Dear Ms. _______,
Your payment has been received. Welcome to Stockholm!

Happy dance! My first conference! Even happier, wilder, dance! My first conference is also my first international conference is also my first time presenting a piece of research, is also my first time travelling alone since I came to England. What it is not is my first visit to Stockholm, but more on that later. Oh happy days.

(Please, someone remind me that the conference is in 2 weeks, and I have yet to do the poster, as well as complete my questionnaire design. Eep. But remind me later, not now.)

For now,
just happy dance!